Gloomy

After the covid-19 was designated the world health organization pandemic, Indonesian governments must have issued policies on how to disinfect the spread of the virus. Various sectors have felt the impact of some policies, as well as in the education sector. Students today must study from home. Many effects are felt by students as a result of the wisdom, and as a student, I certainly feel the effects.
I am one of the students in the lAIN Curup, should also return to my hometown. Since march, the boarding house returned to its home in order to follow the encouragement from the government to break the chain of covid-19. Those of us who used to have so much to do at home with other friends had to do the routine on our own. The normally study at our classroom and meeting the lecturer, now it must be done online.
In my opinion, this online study is under a lot of stress and is less effective, especially for students living in areas with an inadequate Internet network such as myself.Not to mention, if I want to buy a internet quotas here, it's a little pricey for me. Especially if there's a course that used zoom's application for the meeting, I sometimes have to run into a few obstacles, like not being able to get into the roomy, not hearing the lecturer's explanation, or not seeing the screen being given. How annoying is that?, sometimes this condition extremely made me gloomy.
In September, our dorm was made an offer to students who felt that her area had a hard time staying back there with health protocols, such as spraying disinfectant on items she wanted to take to her home, so no running back and forth until the appropriate time, wearing masks, washing her hands and so on. I'm interested in this. But, on the other hand, my mom wouldn't approve of me going back there. She's worried that I'm gonna get a covid-19 and she thinks that the cost of living there is more than if I live with her at home.
I'm actually feeling dillema from two things that I was confused with, stay at home or go back to the dorm, and now my mom's not doing well, her asthma is acting up and I have to keep her here. In these condition I just hope this pandemic goes away and my mother gets well soon, our economic condition can get better, and we can study as usual.